This feeling inside are not the butterflies everyone describes.
They are just flies buzzing around, multiplying with every revolting sound.
Can you hear? They are eating the viscous flaccid meat and drinking the ever effervescent yellow acid.
As if cheering for such succulent buffet, they conglomerate like vultures stuffing their bellies on a fallen pray, or as mosquitos sucking blood until drunk.
They enchant songs of everlasting joy with their little wings flying and dancing in the ballroom that is my stomach.
Where is the butter infront of the fly? Was I supposed to eat some, mommy?
Why are these disgusting creatures inside of me instead of beautiful butterflies?
Where did it go wrong? Mother nature, almighty God, force of the cosmos and universal rule... Has it been just random chance?
Was there no caterpillar? Or was there something else inside this bile?
Infected! I must have been infected with some sort of larvae that at the end killed the metamorphosis of my delicate papillons. No other explanation, this must have been the cause!
However...
It does not matter anymore, for I long no more to speak of this ill matter.
I'm decaying from the inside out... It is gone, the nectar that was going to nurture the insect that was love.
I'm sick with nobody to nurse my dead, putrid, and decomposed soul.
Only flies fly around, just flies and not butterflies.
I beg time for the moment in which my world stopped in between your lips.*
Only to revive and melt down once again, when looking at your black eyes.
I feel like becoming air for you to breath me forever; since I no longer have anything to loose.
And I think of you all the time, in the brightness of the sun, in a corner of the sky.
And I think of you all the time, in the echo coming from the sea which bounces back from your eyes.
I dreamt
Only to revive and melt down once again, when looking at your black colored eyes.
I feel like becoming air for you to breath me forever; since I no longer have anything to loose.
And I think of you all the time, in the brightness of the sun, in a corner of the sky.
And I think of you all the time, in the echo coming from the sea which bounces back from your eyes.
I think of you all the time, in the brightness of the sun, in you gaze...
I dreamt,
Yes, I dreamt you... I have dreamt you once again**
*In here "Time" is personified, in which the author is asking for a moment to come back or be lived again.
**It says "Si te soñe, y te soñe una vez mas..." It is hard to know the exact meaning of this line. On one side, it might just be missing a coma "Si, te sone" it is an affirmation that I have dreamt you. However, as it is, it could be translated to "If I have dreamt you...I have dreamt you again" so it is up to interpretation.
I break my tomb and the wrinkles stretch.
Reason comes back for the journey back to the seed.
Love vanishes and the kiss comes back to being saliva.
Everything I know from school is leaving and it is long gone.
Reverse, reversing, walking in a moon leap motion
Reverse, reversing, may your text go back to the cell
It comes out of my skin, the tattoo goes back to ink.
I play with robots and my ribs shrink.
Going back to craw in this journey back to the seed
Inside someone else, I am sperm that is leaving and it is long gone.
Reverse, reversing, walking in a moon leap motion
Reverse, reversing, may your text go back to the cell
Reverse, reversing, lets walk in slow motion
Reverse, reversing, may your text go back to the cell
I don't want to talk to you
I don't want to reply to you
I don't want to get you and
I don't want to get the text that says goodbye
Reverse, go back, walk in moon like steps
reverse, go back, may your text go back to your cell
Marcha atrás dale marcha atrás caminemos a paso lunar
Marcha atrás dale marcha atrás que tu texto vuelva a celular
I am pretty obsess with this song at the moment, nice lyric and this adaptation from the 90's original hit song it is rad. I think I am going to post more translations from Kinky because I feel like it and the internet needs it...or so I want to believe.
Los Ángeles Azules Cómo Te Voy a Olvidar feat. Kinky
How can I forget you?
Love, love, love,
love, love, love,
I want your eyes to look at me again.
Love, love, love,
love, love, love,
I want to kiss your red lips again.
How to not remember you?
In what way to forget you
If everything is a reminiscence of you
If you are everywhere
Since you are in every rose,
Since you are in every breath,
How can I forget you?
How can I forget you?
If kissing a cross, you are in there
If making a prayer, you are in there
How can I forget you?
How can I forget you?
Since you have nailed yourself into my heart,
You have filled my soul with love,
Your blood goes through my veins,
and my own blood shakes...
with you
*All repeats once again and it ends with the same question*
Why? because it has Gil, the singer from Kinky and because of the lyrics. The feeling... my tiny heart, aweee :'(
Translation:
Invisible
I sought the moment, traveled in silence, and in
between dimensions I found you in the dark.
Your very movements I soon discovered. Space and
time made us burst.
I can’t do it anymore, try to understand. Even
if you are invisible try to do so and then, at the same place. I’ll wait and
wait for this world to connect us again.
I die in silence, searching for the time in
which I could feel your breath upon waking up.
I can’t do it anymore, try to understand. Even
if you are invisible try to do so and then, at the same place. I’ll wait and
wait for this world to connect us again.
Try to make it, even just once. Even if you are
invisible try to do so and then, at the same place. I’ll remember you and wait
for this world to connect us again.
Gil’s
part
Even if you are invisible I can see you (5x)
I can touch, feel, see you, like a crystal made
phantom that will shatter if it becomes real. A hologram that turns on and off,
that gets inside my bed and makes me company without looking, without ever saying
anything.
How much light can there be inside a drop of desire,
which dazzles and completely blinds us? (2x)
Even if you are invisible I can still see you
(7x?)
I can’t do it anymore, try to understand. Even
if you are invisible try to do so and then, at the same place, I’ll wait and
wait for this world to connect us again.
Try to make it, even just once. Even if you are
invisible, try to do so and then, at the same place, I’ll remember you and wait
for this world to connect us again.
(Again 2x) Even if you are invisible I can still
see you (Again)
Since I like this song, I felt like translating it...So, I am going to do so. Well, more like a dub since translations can be done with google (crappy translations) but hell, I want it to fit the music.
Here is the official video with lyrics:
Okay, lets start!
Spheres
An intoxication takes over me, more and more Going out of control, spiraling down Your body I long inbetween shadows and I wait
To be elevated a lot, a whole lot more
It's you I don't want to lose
Between life and death
Between love and luck
Gravitating forever like this
I felt your breath very close and all control got lost
Opened a door from which I could not go back We merged and turned into spheres made out of crystals
You and I flew and floated to the sea
It's you I don't want to lose Between life and death Between love and luck Gravitating forever like this
It's you I don't want to lose Between life and death Between love and luck Gravitating forever like this ohh ohh love (Yes, I added love because it fits)
~~~ Okay, so I am still having trouble with the "Q" words and sounds, because I haven't figure out something that will match "Quiero encontrar tu cuerpo" I obviously, haven't sing this out loud but eventually I will... BUT basically this is it in a nutshell.It took me hours even though the lyrics are simple, but it is hard for them to have the same rhythm in English. Hope someone appreciates this effort.
Late one night, my last thought flew in my half sleep
Was not a burning idea, but an impulse I couldn’t leap
So, I sneak out of the house only gathering my shoes
But quietly as to not awake any of relatives of course
I passed the main hall and opened the main door
And in a few minutes, instantly, I was on the street floor
There was no one around to see me in this state of trance
But doing something like this, shouldn't had given me a feeling of unease
And I looked up to see the common starry sky
Til something caught up my curious sight
And there he was, a man flying and observing above us all
Became like a celestial being into my eyes who could not fall
And I thought to myself, ‘What is he doing up there?
This man looks from Earth but why alone in that empty space?
Then I suddenly felt incredibly special at the spectacle
And wondered if it was only me who only saw him as a miracle
Like when people wished upon a star or what people see in constellations
Or whether the clouds in human’s mind clear of all speculations
Then, I realized, that in just a tiny single moment of eternity
That things like these are one and a hundred feelings that occurring daily
Although what is up there doesn’t affect our destiny much
It can comfort or frighten our troubled souls
This universe may be enormous and strange
But here at home is what everything matters the most
And so I decided, that man with wings I would follow
Informed and aware of my fears, for sure this list I will narrow
Once I saw him land back home, my amusement grew
I knew him all along and couldn’t believe it on my own.
I heard of his new point of view and kept a secret what I saw
Since he would not say anything about his single flight
But I for surely told him “We get a nice view from below it all and what I saw far up,
Is the same luminary star that brightens my life. The answer was nearer from what I thought”
~~~
This is a poem in response to another poem found at hitRECord, which was revised by no other than my boyfriend (who doesn't know it yet, but what can I do? lol) Joseph Gordon Levitt (aka: RegularJoe) : "Above It All"
Also, I colored an old drawing and called it "Aqua Fairy:
Not sure what exactly to do with it, but it is pretty, right?
So, I have been creative as of lately, it might be due to the hitRecord news and its TV show plus, I have had the time too.
Today, I want to discuss the artistic and aesthetically pleasant video 'Up in the Air" by 30 Seconds to Mars, because I am clearly obsess with this song and video.
It has been a while since I have seen such a video done with such an artistic concept behind. Lets be honest, 80% of current music videos are crap and it is nice to see one that it can view several times and won't bore me to death.
So, I haven't done any research whatsoever about the director of such a video but I have to say, Kudos for you, Bartholomew Cubbins and thank you for placing a lot of effort into this video.
I am going to attempt to interpret to the best of my knowledge what it is happening in these series of beautiful sequences.
If you didn't understand anything about the video, the greatest clue as to start decipher this art piece it's at the end of the credits:
This is the end of the video, believe it or not
Basically, it is the name of a king in Greek Mythology who was punished to push a rock up a hill for an eternity and this one is cursed to roll back down for Sisyphus to push it up again.Thus, Sisyphus repeats this action to no end, story to teach that this is what he got because of his arrogance by feeling witter than Zeus. It is used also used a reference as to explain addiction...and obsession.
Irrational dreams that you are addicted to... A drug per se ;)
In summary, addiction meaning to repeat the same action over and over again, expecting a change in vain. NOW, you get the song, right?
'Stuck in a moment of emotion' = Trying to move on and staying stuck in one place.
If you want to know more about Sisyphus and are to lazy to google it, here is the link for wikipedia: Sisyphus
There is also a Russian folk tale that is similar to this story, if you have seen the "Storyteller" you will know what I am talking about...
Anyway, going back to the video, I shall start on with the symbols:
1) Circles. They are everywhere in this video and it is not only circles but the spinning of them. If we follow the story of Sisyphus, the rock is "round" and a circle itself that just keeps going and going forever and ever. My bet is that all of this circles represent life as an ongoing process that we keep repeating with not much change. The circle of life, you say? yeap... that is my guess too. It goes with the lyrics of the song "A thousand times tempted fate. A thousand times I've play this game. A thousand times I've say today..."
3 skulls in a triangle formation...Keep this one in mind
Spinning around in a circle...literally
This concept also applies to the repetition of movements/scenes and the rewinding scenes.
2) Animals. They flash in the video from time to time, zebra, lion, bird, wolf and even a snake.
Bet you didn't see this one the first time you watched the video
I think the people at the end having that fight of color at the end, are each one representing an animal seen in the video and it is actually a fight of survival at the end. The girl or guy on the bicycle really looks like the bird that flashes on the video for a few seconds.
On top of the picture, the one with the hat made out of feather. Too similar, don't you think?
I guess the girl with a stripe bra is a zebra, and the guy with the long puffy hair is a lion...lol
Plus, I bet you saw the bunny man and confused him with the bunny from the movie Donnie Darko (Even thou they don't look alike). Or is it just me?
Triangle, trinity and basically the symbol of the new album. It entitles "Love, Lust, Faith" and these three components like 3 lines end up composing a fourth element a "triangle"... "Dreams"
4)Colors. I am going back to the color fight, the whole scene is like a survival fight in the Darwin view but it made me think that it also has to do with personality and individuality. To be more specific, how people are shaped and 'colored' by environment, people, and themselves, all of us are not painted in one color but we are painted by everything... and how people fight for their dreams. Or maybe I am thinking about this one, waaaay too much.
The drummers with the different masks, they are one color and are pretty much following the band's drummer, Shannon Leto. I shall leave you to interpret this one *whistles*
This takes me to Themes
1) Fight. There are two different types of visual fights, the already mentioned fight with the powder colors and the fencing one.
Both to which are done to emphasize the fighting for 'dreams' and are caused by "Love, Lust, and Faith" which are repeated at the beginning of the video and just before the fight with the color powder but translated on Spanish (amor), Russian (страсть), Chinese (信条) and French (rêves).
2)Running. Jared Leto shows up running twice and to be quite honest, I am not sure of the reason. I am going to take a guess is the running away from everything when faced down with life itself and obstacles. If you have a better idea, let me know because I am intrigued.
3)Fire. Burn baby burn, disco inferno~
Light my fire *wink*
Just like a phoenix? Burn everything to the ground to start all over but nothing anew for there are always ashes.
Now I shall move to the different Characters and Scenes
1)The girl who thinks and pretends to be older... yes, the one who eats ice cream and frozen lollipops and who has this nice scene with balloons that zooms out greatly. I think all these females are an attempt to emphasize 'Love, LUST, faith" and "dreams" Plus, the theme of 'Arrogance' from Sisyphus's story.
Acting tough like a grown up and who eats seductively with a spark of innocence
She is just a girl in a million and yet, somewhat unique.
2)Woman on the rodeo bull machine. She must have something
to do with the video besides being the sex appeal, right?? Well,
someone has to tell me because I still don't have a damn clue besides her appearance screaming LUST all over the place. Besides the already mentioned themes... this
video might have the 7 deadly sins hidden somewhere... This woman has to
be lust and the chubby one has to be gluttony. Pride.. the girl with
the arrogant tattoo? lol ... Not sure if I can pull this out of my ass,
really...wrath, be the adolescent?? XD
Lust, I got it!
Sisyphus's arrogance?
3) The bee man and butterfly girl. This one is hard to figure out
because it can fall into different categories, maybe in the differences
in gender and social views? Like men are working bees and woman are beautiful like butterflies. Or how fragile and insignificant an individual is in comparison to the whole humanity, like one bee in a colony or a butterfly in a
million.
Lastly,
4)The gymnastic, she is literally up in the air, chasing a dream... duh!
However, she is the ONE that wraps everything together (My guess why she is the icon of the video)
'Up in the Air. Chasing a dream so real'
The audience pretty much can assume she is a gymnastic who is passionate about what she does (her dream/drug/love) She 'fights' and jumps through obstacles to be victorious and be above all. She repeats her routine (Endless cycle) in what could be in vain or not.
"A thousand times tempted fate. A thousand times I've play this game. A thousand times I've say today..."
FITS PERFECTLY and I bet she has done sacrifices to be where she is and... you can guess the rest.
Other frames that I found during the flash of sequences that don't last but a few seconds AND are peculiar to me are these:
The only plantae in the entire video
A closed door
Men in military attire with guns
Your turn to tell me what these 3 mean.
Thank you for reading, this took me hrs to make. Hope it helped illuminate your artistic side and aid you to figure out the complexity of this wonderful work of art.
Ciao~
UPDATE: Someone told me that Sisyphus is likely to be referring to the production house company since it also appears at the end of "Beautiful Lie" video. However, on this video it appears as "Sisyphus Product" so it is up to you to interpret it in any way you like, I think it still fits somehow on "Up in the Air." ;D
Thank you, to the lovely person who let me know about this. Keep the comments coming~
Before I embark into my 2 day journey to Mexico I have planned to post screencaps of some of the shows that I am planning to follow this anime season. To my surprise, my wifu is in a BUNCH and I do mean a BUNCH of them.
My favorite so far, because I have no cure for my horrible sense of humor, it is
Yondemasu yo, Azazel-san Z
Where my wifu voices, Beelzebub aka Beelya... A penguin..fly...mutant...demon. Who is a handsome demon prince in the underworld, but it is a cute sonuvabitch on Earth. All these are screencaps of the first and second episode.
Taken from zerochan
Cute Fluffy Demons
Beelya why are you so damn cute?
Zei cat
Azazel giving Akutabe san gifts, how considerate of him...right?
Assassination Attempt gone wrong... Epic Fail
Hot Sonuvabitch kudos if you can guess his seiyu
This show is pretty damn hilarious and I supah love the seiyu cast. On
this note, another delicious seiyu buffet is on the 'Karnavel' anime.
Which in my opinion, plot feels like it is going to be somewhat boring
and shitty (like project K) but the animation is very colorful and the
cast is eargasmic.
First of all, Hiro C as Gareki
Second, we have Ono D as Hirato
and third...
Miyano Mamoru sama who shall always sparkle like the Prince he is :3
Sheep be cute
Hiro C is also voicing another protagonist, as Hibiki in Devil Survivor
2. Unfortunately, I can already tell the story be crappy as fuck, but
will still watch it because of him... Wish me Luck
This is like Digimon but with demons in cellphones...
I can already tell this I will watch either drunk or super tired as to give it some enjoyment...
My dear Kamiya Hiroshi will also voice someone on the "Attack on Titan" but hasn't appear yet. As you can tell this is the second week and have only watched 2nd episodes. Btw, the already mentioned anime, Shingeki no Kyoujin, reminds me so much of Claymore. It is that dark anime in which you bet all of them are either going to die or be scarred for life.
Anyway, I have to leave with more Hiroshi love, here is his newest pv.
Nevermind, it has been deleted of youtube... Well, at least I got to see it once. It is off his new Album Hareiro. If you have a chance...you should watch it. It is SUPAH KAWAII
I shall go to bed now, may Takano san be in my dreams tonight~
Why did I sign up? Duh~ because of my love for Joseph Gordon Levitt aka: RegularJoe, and because I want to be on the TV show!!! lolololol
Just kidding, I don't care about that. I just want more people to see my art and all the crazy beautiful stuff that I do~
Plus, they have challenges and stuff that stimulates my artistic inventive self. I just wrote something for the 10min challenge for the word FAKE:
Unique Mask of Fakeness
Am I fake?
Facing the crowd every single day I walked with a painted common mask.
Anguish does not reflect on my face for I have hidden it very well.
Kindness is what my colored lips try to speak in a monotone voice.
Emotionless and detached from this common world in order to speak the truth.
At
the end of the day I wash my face and the color of my cognitive being
disappears as it is washed by the water. I no longer have to imitate
others and the fragile me can relax and dream of who I could become
tomorrow. It is cowardice or just the simple egocentric and egoist me
who wants to keep who I really am, looked inside for nobody to see
except me.
Am I fake?
If I am fake, what or who am I faking to be? Then, who it is the original me?
I know who I am and who to be, I should no longer be fake but just then who is the mask?
Am I fake for playing someone who I am not but conscious at the same time of who I am?
But
the fakeness that I play it is part of who I am for the time I take to
be under the mask, it is indeed still the original me who have chosen to
who to imitate and what to do.
Fakeness... Don't make me laugh
I am me and a thousand in the genuine combination that I have chosen the pattern to paint on the mask.
So yeah, wish me luck and cross your fingers so that I could get famous and finally meet my boyfriend, Joe ;)
Love your faces and if you have the time, drop by and give me some love~
Ohh and I also got into instagram, add me if you would like: DKCesia
I got a new phone, finally I got a smartphone and sadly... my phone is smarter than I am. It makes me feel stupid at times, but I am starting to get used to it. This is my first post with it. Tadaaa~
Psycho Pass is over and I am not sure what other anime to follow besides Gintama.
While I try to figure out what else to watch, I am stock at nothing... Reading Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass. Free download, thank you, google play,
I miss Takano san...wonder if there is an app to read manga in this thing.
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