Friday, January 13, 2012

Sloth Chapter II "Her Future" ((FIRST DRAFT- unfinished))

{Here is all I have so far for the second chapter.}

Chapter II- "Her Future"

This dream starts with a view from above, as if our young protagonists was flying up in the blue sky and descended slowly to the skirts of the place. The setting: a huge city which may have been seen common at a first glance, but its peculiarity lies in that it works as a clock. The platonic plates were indeed attached to a mechanism which made the whole city moved as if it were the insides of a clock. The center moved in response to the other parts, and so forth. Bridges were cut while others were built in an instant of precision. The habitants used to the movement, didn’t seem to matter if the city moved with them because it never broke the usual pattern. Every part would only move in circles and there is not much to say about it, a very predictable life style could be planned around it. 

The weather on that day couldn’t be more perfect, of course this perfection will depend on the mood.  The mood of course depends on the protagonist and what he or she is about to experience. Going in order, then what the protagonist is going to experience it may or may not help him or her evolve and it is always involves some type of journey. Indeed, majority of times it is called “A Hero’s Journey” and whatnot, it might or not involve some other characters who also have some sort of background and who aid the main character resolve a main issue. Shall I point out the issue and go from there…?

As of right now, there is none and it is not a “Hero’s Journey” sorry to disappoint, but it is some type of self discovery type of journey.  Will I throw up some characters? Yes, I will but they will not evolve. Don’t expect much this is a dream after all and I am just the narrator.  What is our protagonist going to do and experience? First of all, it is a she and after she descends to this city which is the setting already described, well… she will do nothing. The mood is unimportant since the protagonist doesn’t feel anything right now, and going back to the whole perfect weather to match the perfect mood…

It is sunny, clear skies, some lovely clouds that look like cotton candy, a nice breeze that whispers in the ear a nice melody of hope. It is a dream and the unconsciousness of the dreamer has set it this way. Don’t tell me you expected no weather? You were actually right, what kind of weather could exist in a dream if we don’t actually feel it? It doesn’t exist in reality but it does exist in your perception.  The temperature your body experiences outside might be freezing cold and piercing you to the bones, but in the dream it could all change and the only sense you “have” is a fake vision.

In summary: there is no problem to be solve, not a “Hero’s Journey”, no mood, already mentioned the setting, characters are not yet mentioned, and the protagonist is a young female who seems to be floating in a very natural spring weather. This last part sounds a little sarcastic, I shall leave it as it is for the reader needs to read between the lines and decide what the narrator tries to convey. While you either decide to continue reading or think a little bit more, the narrator proceeds to describe the non heroic protagonist.

In that beautiful sky colored in hues of blue and other cold colors with a slight tint of warm orange rays coming from the sun, the young woman whose skin shines a delicate pigmentation of tanned color is indeed floating. Her dark colored burgundy eyes open to the sight of that peculiar city underneath her naked feet.  Her red colored hair glows in response to the light coming from the sun behind her, the wind blows and moves it in different directions and makes it look as if flames covered half of her body. The light dress whose texture might have been silk; moved as if it were to dissolve at any moment. The clothing dyed in different tones of peach colors matched to its owner who didn’t seem to have a precise facial expression. Her monotone voice whispered to the only listener in the skies “Time to go down” fallowing her command her body fell in the following pattern: gravity pulling her forward and down making her body drop as a corpse for an instant, then her body rejecting such force pulled her up as if wings contradict the force from the massive objective, then her feet as if give Mercury’s wings jumped backwards and then forwards. These cycle repeated twice until she flipped backwards after jumping forward and then she kept jumping down as if walking on invisible stairs with the grace of a child jumping on puddles after the rain.  

In comparison to the atmosphere, the cemented soil in which she stood was bitter to the point of given her an aching sensation. Her stoic face changed to complete dissatisfaction and her disapproval could be read even from her picturesque pink lips. After looking around this new environment from far away and now close, the young woman who shall be our nameless “heroine” walked slowly to a bench around 15 steps away from her. It felt as needles pinched her feet with each step, but slowly decreasing in significance and magnitude. Pretending to have the dignity of royalty and with a bourgeoisie attitude born from nowhere; the young woman sat with her back completely straight while looking forward as if waiting patiently for someone. That someone appeared with a wicked smile and his grin could not mean anything fortunate.

The stranger asked her “My Lady, are you perhaps waiting for the next train?”

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Sloth- Prologe & Part I "Her Present"

{Here is the first part from the first Chapter of my short story about 'Sloth'. Probably going to post or add the next part after I am done with the first draft.}

Prologue

It was not always like this, the other night I dreamt of the different me. In the dream I saw myself as a young girl with aspirations, hopes and dreams just like any other. The dream ended just like any other, by facing reality and its harsh punishment for those who aim to high. I flew too high into the blue and shiny sky just to be blinded by the sun and finally fall rapidly to the dry ground. My wings broken and falling to pieces just like my goals, the wind hitting my back as if whipping me for desiring too much. When did it become a sin to wish, to desire, to dream?

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Chapter I
 "Her Present"
   Time stop running rapidly, I can’t keep up with the rhythm.  Can’t you tell I no longer can dance under this freezing weather? Time, please go slowly on me and let us together enjoy this last ballad. Indeed, let us once again embrace in a fake eternity one last time, before the real one comes and takes me away.  The snow somehow feels warm underneath my useless body and I can’t lie and say that I don’t feel thirsty. In fact, the water drops created as the snowflakes melt away on my lips are not enough for this uncontrollable thirst. It bothers me a little but it is not like I can do anything about it, for my spirit can barely even make my body sigh. In the corner of my eye I can barely see the pavement, how utterly ordinary it look but with the proper tint and this marvelous snow it should become a marvelous piece of art. There it goes slowly and properly carrying itself away from me, it is a magnificent river of warm colors which carriers a lifetime; here and now it is simply flowing in a synchronized music that I can only hear while the snow keeps falling.  Grandiose? I am waiting for it to be, not for others just for me to lonely admire as my last work on this earth. I shall baptize it: “My Last Drop of Beauty”    

Incredibly as it sounds, there are no remains of fear for I have wish for this moment many times before. I never realize that peace as this one could ever be found on this materialistic plane however, it is painful nonetheless as the wounds keep reminding me of the bound I still have with mother earth.  Is there anything worth crying over? Yes, there is as that blue and grayish sky reminds me how far it is from me. Why couldn’t you be mine at least once in this lifetime? I envy those who can see straight at you with joy, starring at the bright stars as if looking for destiny, embracing under your bright sun, giggling together or crying a little under the tedious moonlight, wishing for certain a moment to happen as if meteors could ever make it come true. All of this I could never do because, you belong to someone else and I had no right to love you the way I do. You are so mighty high away from me, you don’t see me the way I want you to and…and…I am finally crying. I longed for you to embrace me, to comfort me and save me, but you never did.  I could never hate you for my existence depended on you; I became sea foam just to be closer to your reflection but all in vain for I could never be good enough.  Now, that you know my secret I forbid you to smile at me out of pity, if I were to be gone from this place I don’t want anyone to even pronounce my name. 

This is an ephemeral dream from which I don’t want to ever wake up; irony is that I after I close my frozen eyelids they might not ever open again. I’ll never get to see you again and contemplate the real sky, from now on you will be the sky I have always dreamt of. Perfect in your imperfection but finally mine, the obsession that was kept a secret from anyone but always present in my being.  Am I finally beautiful and at least worth seeing for this last moment? Sky, I lied to myself some moments ago, for this lovely image is not only for me but also for you. Please, see me dance in a motionless ballad that only could be heard by us. I can feel tears coming from my soul, and can only ask to be a perfect painted canvas for the one I love the most. Is this irrational? To have been enticed by the unknown entity whose attention is for everyone except me?

I can hear footsteps and my body is abruptly flexing my abdominal muscles. Coughing never felt so painful before, why is my right hand taking forever to move? I need to cover this filthy blood whose presence is not pleasant to my scenery.  Stop it! Body of mine, just stop and give up already! And this noise it better not be people. GO AWAY! I don’t want you to ruin it, my last gift to the world. You will you ruin it like your destroyed my will to be. Ignorant people! All of you, with your idiotic and your useless actions… why couldn’t you just disappear? I despise you for I am part of you without even wanting to be, from all the people in this entire world why did I have to be like you? Prejudice was placed upon me due to the fact that we physically are alike, but I wish I had the guts and power to eradicate the likes of you from this planet. If I could, I wouldn’t die on the same soil you step everyday and would have gone to a different place where discrimination won’t touch me as much it has thanks to you uneducated, parasitic, and vulgar masses. All of you deserve to be seen down and be in the low place you are for taking advantages from others and from not having ambition to be better. I…. had it in me once, but  I am now lying on this white covered nasty, filthy and disgusting soil trying once again to make something aesthetical appealing for... for… me and him.

It doesn’t matter anymore, my body is broken and I might be hallucinating for I don’t see shadows, the noises have transformed into a deep silence that has hypnotized the last piece of consciousness left in me. I shouldn’t wish for anyone to disappear…I am ugly, am I not? I called them parasites when at the end of my days I did nothing productive to be proud of. I have always been the ugly broken doll that I am now, just lying on an empty bed always sleeping and dreaming. It is not that I avoid reality, or maybe I was but has always been aware that I could not do anything else but to give my desires to Morpheus and wish to be different in his world.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Happy New Year Everyone

Hello~

I know short post, but I have no internet at home...Still I am writing and when I get the chance be prepared for a short story (that should be composed of 3 chapters)

I have nothing else to say... except that I miss the interwebs and whatnot.

Love you all, and specially Takano san <3


This is just a song that a friend sent to me and...it is sad but nice.

Hope you like it, see ya guys later.