My Friend's baby was BORN!!!! and her cuteness is.... KYAAA~~~~~
I dyed my hair and will be posting photos later, not exactly exciting...since it is NOW black...
In other not so cute news...I didn't do the essay I was suppose to do, which it was due today...DAMN! Idk how to turn it in now... and yeap...need to do that ASAP.
Junjou Mistake was awesome!!
This post is lame but had to do it because it is 11/11/11.
Song of the day:
Funny Video of the Week:
"Work blows dick for Skittles"
Hell with it...This is an AWESOME Anime Related Video!!!.... that made me laugh (Alucard's voice= eargasm)
I bet those exchange students were REALLY from Texas *winks*
This is it for today...See ya later people and as always,
I love you, Takano san!! Hope I will get to see your smexy face next week.
I feel like I should write a personal story full of despair with a very tragic plot. Should I try?
While I am still trying to make sense of it in my head, for now I should post these videos that made my day...less shitty than it is.
Kitty got your tongue?
Hope it doesn't give anyone nightmares, because it is a great short film. The story and the narrative reminds me of Edgar Allan Poe, didn't he wrote a short story about a cat?
Anyway, I recommend this youtube channel to everyone who enjoys these type of stories. There are not many videos in it, and I watched them in a short time.
The next two I am going to post is one story that really got me today. Since I am in a very melancholic, depressed, destructive state after been rejected; I could not help but to meditate on the many different themes of this story.
At first I thought "WOAH, so many fetishes don't even know where to start, wait.. is that a phallic symbol? you bet it is!"
I am not sure where to start to analyze, and if I should attempt to explain in detail the meaning behind it. Perhaps, not sure if I should approach and give my full understanding of my interpretation of this art piece with all of you.
I guess I will start with the main theme and my interpretation of it.
-We humans, tend to suck at life and we experience aloneness. We want to find relatedness and to experience we are somebody special to someone else. Truth is WE ARE BORN AND DIE fcking alone!!!
-I guess the old man didn't want to find his life is complete shit and die alongside a freaking maggot. Did I say 'alongside'? I mean maggot who is fcking going to KILL HIM IN HIS SLEEP!!
I shall move now to symbolism
-maggot: phallic symbol
-Hole in the wall: a hole in the freaking wall
-Picture: isn't it obvious the dead tree means the old mean is alone and his penis is also dead?
-Mask: pretend to be someone else...
-The old man: yourself
Moving along with other themes:
-Everything is pretty sexual, as I said there are many fetishes. Voyeurism and necrophilia even bestiality?(don't know if that counts for worms...)
Anyone flinch when the maggot got into the woman's corpse? I did
-Solitude duh!!
I don't feel like blogging about this video anymore, I mean everything seems pretty obvious... if you didn't get something ask me, I'll tell you what I think.
As always, I hate the emptiness of solitude and the idealization of love and relationships.
It has been a hell of a month, nothing is working for me and I just want to throw and beat shit.
List of things that have gone stray to hell:
job
school application
friendship/love interest
diet
anime list
vacations in Mexico city.
my blog and pictures
and some other shit that I don't want to fcking remember. The thing that pisses me of at the moment is that my online friend; who happens to be the guy I like...BLOCK ME ON FB CHAT
Since god knows when, but I barely find out today. It sucks balls bc I feel ridiculously stupid for not noticing it before. Not only did I trust him last week, when I was about to shot myself and drown my sorrows in alcohol and told him how shitty I felt. BUT, this week he was the one been depress and shit. Gio wanting to return the favor and been supportive has been awake all fcking week online till I can't distinguish morning from night, trying to catch him online and to be there for him.
I am trying to have some fcking vacations here, but rly can't enjoy them bc I keep thinking about him. To find out TODAY that he block me from fb chat!! so, yeah...who feels shitty now? ME!!! why couldn't he just say he doesn't feel like talking to me. Am I annoying?? if I have been sending a message on fb everyday is bc I fcking care!!! yes, I ask what is wrong bc I thought he really trust me as much as he declares he does, to find out that my concern is an annoyance to him...and obviously, he really doesn't need me. If you don't need me, why are u been so fcking emo?? I don't get you, I don't get wtf men are thinking about.
Not only did I find this out, but my old crush happens to be VERY active after I deleted him from my fb friends...AND YES I am adding him back, lets see if he does add me back...sounding like revenge on my current crush?? yeah, it is...at least I get to stare at smexy pictures of my old crush and drool for a short moment.
So yeah, this was my rage post, cuz I feel like expressing all this desire to hit both guys on the freaking crotch until they get on ther knees.
Ohh yeah, my current plan to go out clubbing and hit on hot amazing guys, has also fail...I went to like 3 different clubs and NOTHING!!! My gay friend obviously took me to gay clubs, but he started to feel "sick" and had to go back home. Didn't even get a chance to dance for more than 2 minutes....
Gio doesn't know if to cry or laugh about her current situation..for now, I am going to wash my make-up, put my pjs, declared failure at life and go to sleep.
