Thursday, April 4, 2013

New Home at hitRECord! and Unique Mask of Fakeness

Hello Lovely People~

Just dropping by to say that I have a new home for all my artistic stuff (beside here and redbubble) at hitRECord.


Why did I sign up? Duh~ because of my love for Joseph Gordon Levitt aka: RegularJoe, and because I want to be on the TV show!!! lolololol 


Just kidding, I don't care about that. I just want more people to see my art and all the crazy beautiful stuff that I do~

Plus, they have challenges and stuff that stimulates my artistic inventive self. I just wrote something for the 10min challenge for the word FAKE:


 Unique Mask of Fakeness

Am I fake?

Facing the crowd every single day I walked with a painted common mask.

Anguish does not reflect on my face for I have hidden it very well.

Kindness is what my colored lips try to speak in a monotone voice.

Emotionless and detached from this common world in order to speak the truth.

 At the end of the day I wash my face and the color of my cognitive being disappears as it is washed by the water. I no longer have to imitate others and the fragile me can relax and dream of who I could become tomorrow. It is cowardice or just the simple egocentric and egoist me who wants to keep who I really am, looked inside for nobody to see except me.

Am I fake?

If I am fake, what or who am I faking to be? Then, who it is the original me?

I know who I am and who to be, I should no longer be fake but just then who is the mask?

Am I fake for playing someone who I am not but conscious at the same time of who I am?

But the fakeness that I play it is part of who I am for the time I take to be under the mask, it is indeed still the original me who have chosen to who to imitate and what to do.

Fakeness... Don't make me laugh

I am me and a thousand in the genuine combination that I have chosen the pattern to paint on the mask.

So yeah, wish me luck and cross your fingers so that I could get famous and finally meet my boyfriend, Joe ;)

Love your faces and if you have the time, drop by and give me some love~

Ohh and I also got into instagram, add me if you would like:  DKCesia

Ciao~


Lovely betches ;)

Monday, March 25, 2013

New Phone and Psycho Pass is Over

I got a new phone, finally I got a smartphone and sadly... my phone is smarter than I am. It makes me feel stupid at times, but I am starting to get used to it. This is my first post with it. Tadaaa~

Psycho Pass is over and I am not sure what other anime to follow besides Gintama.

While I try to figure out what else to watch, I am stock at nothing... Reading Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass. Free download, thank you, google play,

I miss Takano san...wonder if there is an app to read manga in this thing.

This is it for now. Ciao~

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

February is full of nothing

Hello people

I have been absent due to my busy ass schedule plus the fact that I am celibate since I can't give a fuck about anything.

Anyway, the only thing that has been giving entertainment  in this path of absurd common unchanging life are: anime, pictures and fb games.

I'm not really going to talk about anything...So, I am just going to post random ass pictures. Enjoy

First set of pictures go to "Moyashimon Returns"

Why? Because I watched the first one and my husband, Konishi Katsuyuki (Konitan) voices two characters:

Misato san 
Microbe Sergent

 Second, because of all the funny Mexican references. I think I enjoyed this season more than the first one.




Second set of pictures are from my favorite anime this season, "Psycho Pass" and all credit goes to Zerochan.com. I can't wait for the ending, this anime has so many "WTH?" moments that at first you have to rewind or at least pause for a second to really process what just happened.



Third set of pictures goes to Gintama, which I am highly happy for the new episodes (ep 257- 261) and satisfied with the latest episode that was a re run in which Konitan voiced a character (ep. 262)

The beginning of the arc had me laughing with the shogun.
Gin X Shogun ???
Look out for the fairies on your shoulders
I didn't cry at the ending... My eyes were just SLIGHTLY watery :'(

More KONITAN for me :3

It snowed yesterday so I took some pictures...BUT, I am only going to post my favorite one because I am lazy and tired and I want to go to sleep.






Monday, January 14, 2013

End of Hellsing Ultimate

Hello People!!

After many years of awesome and grotesque Hellsing OVA's, the last one was released a month ago and the subtitled English version was distributed online some days ago.

I am still in shocked because somehow I wanted more out of it and my expectations were not fulfilled.

Be prepared for a bunch of spoilers and fangirl I mean, admiration for the characters and graphics *cough cough*

First thing that I noticed is that somehow female Alucard somehow smack the shit out of Walter and he got younger? I honestly haven't seen the 9th OVA since it was released but that transition... Got me fucking confused. BTW, I was already expecting a huge motherfucking battle between the two and at the end I was pretty damn lost... Did I like miss something?

Second, battle between Ivan's evil werewolf twin brother and Seras. Apparently, everyone just wanted to fucking die and were damn happy to fight and die for whatever the dumb reason they did all the motherfucking war.

Ivan from Hetalia
Come on!! It is Ivan's twin Nazi brother! bet this dog is also from Mother Russia
The only damn good shit about this fight is the fanservice
 So, while Seras dumbass Victoria is fighting the suicidal bitch, Alucard is poisoned by the Chesire Cat whose name is all effing German and who I did not care to screencap...

Anyhow, I got all freaking sexy Alucard in all his old Dracula glory:


I want this frame as a HUGE WALL POSTER!
 And obviously magmatic hot:


Yeah...also his half ass-ed  dramatic wanna be death


Alucard "dies" and at this point I am like "WTF HAPPENED TO WALTER?"

Instead of a battle, I got amazing visuals of Walter's failure to kill Alucard and his 'grief'. Enjoy~

Walter and Alucard's pelvic ribbon

Walter posing like a motherfucker kickass good for nothing
Walter going nuts for Alucard... I can't blame him bc I would have done so too....
 Alucard dies, Seras fights the werewolf!!! yeah~ Who would have guessed he was one... *sarcasm*



Not me, because I knew all along he was indeed GIN SAN!!!

Gintama reference, you don't get it? your life sucks dick for skittles
Ohhh and...SHIT GOES DOWN!

This is the "What if the Titanic wasn't a boat and didn't hit an iceberg, instead it hit a shit load of bombs"

Forgot to mention that Walter gets shoots like tons of fucking times by a priest that has no cheeks and nobody cares to remember his name.

WRONG! It is only half way of the damn OVA
Walter, why you look so hot on this part? Not sure if to feel like a pedo or not...
Integra and Seras pretty much kill the evil motherfucker Nazi FAT ASS machine, that at end gets to shoot Integra's eye and gets away with his macabre stupid plan. Which in fact pissed the fuck out of me because I wanted him to suffer much more by knowing he was a dumb ass machine and that he didn't get to kill Alucard... I can't believe they let him die with a shitty smile on his face. It irritates me to no fucking end...

Here comes the part that makes this end worth of waiting, Walter killing the useless doctor that in return gave us information about an unknown identity that has something to do with Alucard. ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?!!! like... REALLY? NOW YOU THROW THIS BITCH IN THE PLOT?
Whatever the fuck man, whatever... I didn't really need to know what was the whole deal with her.

ALL I FUCKING CARE WAS WALTER ANYWAY!!!

So, we see Walter in a reign of flames, wires, blood and beauty every fucking where. I am super serious, he dies with dignity even when he states to be "pathetic" 

 

PATHETIC MY ASS!!! 

Young Walter
Old Walter

Walter was by far one of the best characters in all this series and I love him to no end. It was touching how he dedicated his last breath and words to his lady, Integra. THAT IS DEDICATION!!!

After his death, 30 years pass and whatya know... Integra is an old hag  lady.

Who can't get over Walter *tear*

 Ohh yeah, Alucard comes back... No shit *sarcasm once again*

He tries to sneak in and fails.
It took him just a few years to kill all the freaking souls in his body except for one... Tons of surprises there... Not really.

NO WAY! I thought you were nurturing kids in Africa.
Okay, any normal fangirl would have died from the next scene but not me. I handled it like a mofo and creamed all over my girly panties because Alucard is just visual porn and instant urgasm... You don't believe me? See for yourself:


I am wet and it is not raining...

This is basically the end...

The Bird of Hermes Is My Name, Eating My Wings To Make Me Tame


As you can tell, ending wasn't good enough for me. I give it a 8/10 because of the visuals that kicked ass, characters and voice acting. The only thing that lacked for me was the end of the story, I was expecting more and I feel like it wasn't wrapped up well enough to fit this series.

Anyhow, I shall leave you with my favorite ending song. Magnolia~


Monday, January 7, 2013

IT’s Endless Dream (Second Ending for 'His Last Dream')

This is the short continuation to my story His Last Dream.

I recommend reading this one only if you are very curious about the characters. As many of you can tell, I made 'IT' to be whatever the reader decides it to be and that is how I intended since the beginning. However, the story changed from what I have in mind a year ago and 'IT' became something personal. Here is what I made my 'IT' to be. I have to admit this one is more bittersweet that the first ending to the story. I still hope you will enjoy it~

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IT’s Endless Dream

An ephemeral time that only exists on ITs memories, a bittersweet time where MAGIC occupied a space that became empty after he left.  A dream that for the sake of both had to be dream again to clean them from guilt and free them once again. 

IT walked on MAGIC’s world for many years, trying to find him but Earth is too big for that to happen in the short time IT had to do so. Luck was not on ITs side since woken up on the strange place filled with people, IT was placed on the other side of the world where MAGIC lived. It might have been on purpose or so, for capricious destiny decided to give IT that fate on Earth. IT adapted and passed through many hardships as well as blessings and what humans call ‘miracles’ but never had the chance to meet the one person IT longed to see once again. IT saw the beauty of nature, of humans, of animals and what IT missed on the other world which was sincere affection from people. IT almost felt like a human but could never achieve complete happiness for there will always be something missing. IT saw the cruelty of people too, how each other suffer and how they hurt one another, but also how they fight for what they want and to defend those they consider precious. Just like this, IT learned and embraced one of the most unfortunate trails of humans…Hope.   
  
Maybe it is not righteous to judge if it was either fortunate or not what occurred to IT, but just to see it as something that happens and that is it for that is how life works. It is not always the outcome but how it occurs and how the individual perceives it. Just like seen a meteor pass on a cold night for it can be lucky to wish upon that fallen star as it could be unlucky if the person gets sick afterwards. Also, to wait for this moment to occur and wait lonely on the freezing cold to just stare at the beauty of the stars but not obtain the desired occurrence; it could be lucky to admire the stars and be just fine afterwards as it could be unlucky to be pissed and get sick afterwards. It depends on perspective, everything much does. It is just how life works, whenever it goes or doesn’t go as planned and how you see it happening it is what sometimes counts. 

Time flew by and while IT walked the Earth and admired forests, deserts and lakes, our young hero grew and lived his life with no dreams. He had goals and was able to reach them but his youth passed away, and even if IT was to see him on the same plane it wouldn’t have been the same as when they met. Either way, as I said, the dream had to happen once again and for this IT had to go back to where IT belongs and our dreamer had to be able to dream. 

Everything occurred in between these lines, for IT died on Earth and the now not so young man was able to dream again. One night, just like any other night, after eating with his family, our hero went to sleep.
The first dream he had in a very long time felt similar as if he had dreamt it before. Rare for he has had only nightmares but this one didn’t felt like one of those. He could only observe but not move and thought of sleep paralysis, but was not like the ones he has experienced before. Instead of nothing moving at all, the place moved towards him as if it was a movie been displayed in front of him. The panorama looked as any other in movies, books, and very common that he might have had seen it before. Average trees, clear sky, a view of a forest during spring with the exception that no animals were on sight.

He was able to suddenly move his head to the left and saw an obscure cliff, but didn’t interest him and turned his sight to the right. This time, he saw a lake in which the water shined to the point that nothing could be reflected. So luminous that it was hard to describe what was exactly present in the center. The curious man moved his vision towards it, and the closer he approached it as if zooming in with an invisible lens, the more his chest felt compressed with a burning sensation. 

Enigmatic as it was magnetic, the sensation of not discovery something new but of have found something lost and forgotten had the man intrigued. MAGIC, as he was called before, wanted to shout, to be part and actually be in that plane that once unknown to his conscious he walked in it before.  Not because of the surrounding but because of the figure, the shape and person on the center of the incredibly vivid lake that seemed to be sleeping, resting, waiting. Joy filled MAGIC’s soul, along with a serene peace. When his vision aligned at the distance of the shore, the man moved his right hand and it materialize in his view and into the world. He felt hope and desire to reach that person, that spirit, that feeling called “IT.” 

Unfortunately, just when the man tried to step inside the lake, abruptly he woke up. He once again saw the same ceiling, the same light bulb, the same room, and the same darkness of the night in which he has been living, sleeping, and comforting love. MAGIC woke up in his adored home and to the woman that he has loved for many dreamless years. He touched her head with the hand that long to rediscover the secrets of that dreamy land 

In his being, only sentiments of gratitude, peace, and joy existed during that night. The warmth of his bed sheets, the softness of the pillow and the sight of his wife, comforted the man to no end. He embraced the love of his life and while closing his eyes to once again sleep, the smell of roses with a tint of sweetness from hydrangeas bathed in dew, filled his soul letting him be at peaceful freedom and imaginary happiness. 

At the center of the lake, IT also woke up with a chill on the spine. IT felt MAGIC’s presence once again but when turning around to meet him, only a faded ghost, a dissolving image, the fragile reflection of MAGIC appeared for a few seconds. IT cried and smiled since a miracle finally occurred to IT, and even if it was only a few seconds, even if they didn’t touch, talk, or saw each other face to face, to IT everything was all a miracle. IT couldn’t stop crying, the tiny droplets of salty water fell on the lake and nothing extraordinary took place. The sobbing spirit swam across the lake where IT saw MAGIC for the last time. 

“Sweet and sour mirage may our souls rest in eternal and blissful peace. I wish for your happiness, that you may be with the person that waited for you. I shall now hold to my promise and wait for you here, in this place where I will build a paradise for you. In case you lose your way, in case you find yourself lonely again, in case you no longer have a home. I will for you, my magic, my hope, my friend, my love. I don’t regret our time together, for the memory should not give me an empty sorrow, this despair is my joy of having met you.
Thanks to you, I have been able to walk on a world different from my own. I’ve traveled all around your beautiful world and have experienced many things by myself. Our memories are my treasure and the secret that I will forever keep in my scarred heart that still has the wounds of the impossible.”

Those were the words IT spoke to the empty wind and proceeded to swim more but this time to the bottom of the lake. Beautiful rays of light passed from the surface and hit silver color sand. Still the most visible object in the blue hue and cold color water was undeniably the red scarf that MAGIC gave IT.  

Preserved underwater with ice dust, blood stains, and melancholy the scarf remained motionless across the water with one end touching the bottom of the lake and with the other one pointing up to sky. It was in a spiral like position that stood gently as if it would fall or float at any minute. 

IT thought of how strange this world must have been to MAGIC, for whatever he could remember at the time. IT giggled at the irony, the young man appeared with not memory and also left without it, was it coincidence or fair trade?

The free spirit whose chains were replaced one for another, tenderly touched the scarf and placed the fabric around his hands and then wrapped its body with it while rotating, swimming, and dancing with the only item that proved that everything occurred in that dream. IT looked up to the water that had the same color as MAGIC eyes and swam to the surface were a staircase made out of clouds was waiting for IT. This staircase lead up to IT’s new eternal sleep bed, which was a normal full moon placed on a navy blue sky. IT’s tears became the everlasting shiny stars and once in a while one would fall to the land to become a plant. When IT’s optics would close and the small dream world be all quiet, it is then in that instant that the moon will become bright as the sun but of this nobody would ever witness for it was a gift only meant for MAGIC to see.  IT remained silent and when given the chance of insanity to speak to the empty land during nights, a melody will give birth to a sweet breeze that carried the void in IT’s spirit.

 A dream created by solitude and filled with love. Destined to cross each other’s path that is how solitude, IT’s true identity was meant to meet love… MAGIC.  After meeting once, forgotten, remembered and never together, love will come and go while solitude remains. Only magic can do the impossible possible, for love is only the one who can give anything to solitude. In exchange, solitude would always welcome love and will unconditionally be there. 

Solitude will sleep with the memories of the one she needs the most, while he lives forgiven her but never truly forgotten her. Both live in hope, joy, and freedom in their own ways. Even if she knows he will never come back, she will forever wait alone in vain hope. Only knowing and wishing for him to be forever happy while on the other side of the spectrum, he finds reassurance in the fact that he will never be alone for even solitude will be there in case his world crumbles. 

This is how an everlasting dream meant to never be dreamt by a dreamer, again has told a story about two people, two deities and one destiny. It is like this that this tale shall end for I, can’t convey my sentiments to words, nor words to poems, or poems to songs. Breath, saliva, and the melodic rhythm of my thoughts are the only reality that transcends the quiet night.

This was the last dream a young man had, and the endless dream a young lady dreams. 

~FIN